Promises That Kills.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
I asked myself. Are you the person whom i actually know? A week is enough to change you from the original you to a unreasonable person. It is heart-breaking and disappointing to see you treat me this way. Or are you planning to treat me this way from the very beginning? It's not that i don't trust you. But can you be trusted? Words you're saying now are totally opposites of what you've said when you were overseas. Do you still expect me to have the trust in you when you lied to me? Was it a mistake for not agreeing to what you have requested through the message when you were overseas? Were your feelings real at the very beginning? Are you always so insensitive? Do you even understand what you're doing? Yes, you are ripping my heart into pieces, but i guess it doesn't really matter to you. Right now, what you've ever care is yourself, not me. What selfless love? That's a lie. I never know you would say those hurting words. You said i want to control your life... But look, who wants to control your life? Do i even have the right to do that? All i ever wanted was more of your accompany, is that too much to ask for? Every time you would make the same mistake after you've apologized. Don't you think you should do something about it? Sometimes i just want you to cheer me up, but you just don't understand what I'm looking for. You weren't like that before your trip. You've never said that i was controlling your life, you've never treated me like a trash and you've never not appreciated what I've done for you. Now it's all different. A surprise meant a lie to you. A desire for accompany meant that I'm controlling your life. Your 'didn't mean to hurt' has hurt me deeply. What is happening to you? You would blame me for the mistakes that I've made when you yourself have done the same mistake. How can a guy be so petty? You made me feel that I'm nothing to you, perhaps i ain't important in your eyes. Perhaps, I'm somebody you can 'use' and 'dump'. Perhaps your love doesn't exists. Perhaps you didn't meant what you've said. Perhaps you didn't know that your promises kills...