HI DIARY?
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Hi diary, how have you been? Haha. This post is like nothing much really, just some thoughts of mine that i can't bottle them up. I've been like really weird nowadays. I can't figure it out myself what's the reason behind it, but it seems like there's really another micro-devil inside the littledevil. I felt really laid back in doing work and stuff, my heart doesn't seem to coordinate well with my mind? Where has my passion for eveything gone to?! I'm beginning to turn to be like others. I'm beginning to be okay with everything. Okay to draw and submit imperfect work. Okay to go out and mix with smokers. Okay to not complete my work on time. Okay to stay up late. Okay to not study. :( I'm a BADDIE now! Am i? Or am i not? Or should i be the AILING who is a perfectionist, to be a good girl, to excel in almost everything? I'm struggling. I don't wanna be a friend who my friends feel real dissppointed with. I don't wanna lose anymore things in my life...
Well, my eyes are 'growing' bigger somehow. I'm beginning to see what are the true colours of people. People whom i thought are good friends aren't really that good anymore. They come close to you because you can benefit them and dumped you when you don't do things their way. They think that they're somehow having more right than you do, but they aren't. I'm not that brave to confront those people but i know others will. Beware of these people, i tell myself. They can be really close and good to you when they need your help today, but they shoot you with hurtful and ill-mannered words when you don't do things their way. They think they are 'big', but they aren't! Those people are really (stupid.) I'm not that great to be your friend, so don't ever look upon me when you need help. To think that i will help you? I won't.
Sometimes, people do things real differently thinking that it'll benefit you. But instead, they aren't! They don't go through serious thinking before they convey what the want to say to you. It causes ill feelings to sensitive people. :( I know you meant well, but think the other way. Think about the other possibilities that people may not understand what you meant for them. I don't wanna be mad at you or sth. But do consider my words.
Lastly, 2 movies i would like to share! :D HMMM, 1st one: Wendy Wu-The Homecoming Warrior and Bruce Almighty! :D Haha. And other shows like Rihanna-Live, Retro:Mind Your Language and Curious George! :D