WORST DAY OF MY LIFE.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Its sad. Its sad to know that you're gone. I blame myself for it. Never really having to cherish you well was the greatest regret in my life. It was only after we are about to break up, or rather we're over, then i know that you are precious. As precious are the core of my heart. I cherished the times. The times that we've spent together.. be it anywhere and anytime. The way you cared for me, the way you showered your love upon me. Thank you for being such an understanding person.. Though you said yoiu're not. But you are. I love the way we hug, we kiss. Its warm. That's how my heart was melted by you. You're the one who had shone my dark life, you're the one that coloured my dull life, you're the one who melted my heart and making me feel belonged. This breakup was too sudden, although i feel that it was coming before it had happened. I'm worried... Worried that this will happen, hoping that it won't come true. But it still did. I feel weak. Weak without your energy. Weak without your presence. Weak knowing that you're gone. Although you said that you'll be there for me, but i know its not enough. Its never enough. I need you. I need your soul, your heart, your presence. I need you... I know its difficult to stand on my own feet without having to rely on you. But i'll try, as what i had promised. You're the one i love in the whole of my life. And nothing's gonna change that. I won't allow anybody to change that too. Thanks for saying that i understand your good intention, i actually do. But i'd never wanna take that in. Right now, and in the future, i only want to keep mermories of the past till ytd. I'm gonna keep nothing about today. I know i'm lying, lying to myself, thinking tt you're still my bf. But if i am still given a chance to get together with you, i'll go about doing it without a second thought... I will never let you go.